I think more than anything we fear being found out.
We are scared; scared that people will find out who we really are, warts and all.
We find ourselves often wondering what others see in us and what they think of us.
Our myopic and self centered views on life have paralyzed us.
Why?
Because discovering ourselves over and over, whether in counseling sessions or too much time in isolation or even in self-centered prayer, has led to a deep and magnified view of our failures, flaws, and wounds.
I often find myself in constant preoccupation with these nagging thoughts.
True freedom lies in lending ourselves to others instead of to some sort of introspective paranoia.
My dear friend Sam Choi once told me that humility comes not in thinking less of ourselves, but in not thinking of ourselves at all.
We are reminded by the Apostle to "in humility, consider others better than ourselves", we are told to look "not only to our own interests, but also to the interests of others."
Verily we are told by Christ, that in the end, the man who strives to save his life will lose it, and the man who gives his life will find it.
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